A Little Sentiment and A New Chapter.

It’s just dawned on me how much I’m going to miss my psychology course next year. I haven’t appreciated it at all since I started last year and it’s taken around 7 months to finally appreciate what I’m doing with my life. I’m a little upset that I didn’t go to university sooner, but various things stood in my way and as a teenager I wasn’t much of a “doer” or a fighter. I adore studying psychology. I remember people saying how tough the subject is but I’ve been getting a few 1sts, my last essay got 81% and I’m proud of that. If I’m honest though I haven’t worked hard at all, I’ve taken it for granted but I know this is what I want. I have five more pieces of work to hand in, plus a “resub”, I stupidly chose my job over my coursework and failed to hand in a piece of work so I’ll need to wait until June to sort that. Sadly I won’t start year 1 (I’m currently doing a foundation year) until September/October 2017. I’ll be old by the time I earn a decent wage! But even the journey will be worth it. I find the work quite addictive, I actually want more. I love spending hours finding the perfect piece of research that fits what I’m working on, it’s such a rewarding feeling. I love making links between a theory and a piece of research. I love getting my grade back (most of the time) and feeling a little burst of pride.

In the meantime, I have many psychology books to read in my year off. We’re moving into our new home soon (this month) so I have a lot of decorating to do. I can’t wait to paint and decorate, and I want a vegetable patch! I also might try to get a temporary job in admin (hopefully) for 2-3 months. I can’t wait to have our own house, I know I’m going to be really happy. It’s taken quite a while to get back up from everything falling apart in 2014 but I’m so close and all of the struggling is nothing now, it’s been dusted off. It’s strange being excited about the near future but I deserve it I think. I like that things have never been easy, it builds good character and creates strength. I seldom think back to the tough times that I’m referring to; I could probably write a book. It was all a mess. Now I’m someone new. It’s like the 9 lives metaphor I mentioned in a previous post. Anyway, I’m looking forward to my summer of painting and gardening and shopping for the house. I’ll no doubt be enjoying a pint of ice cold juice, sat on our newly purchased garden furniture reading a good crime/mystery/thriller novel during my down-time…

I recently went to an event at the main university to listen to a talk on psychology courses. I was hoping to chose one of the following: Psychology and Criminology, Forensic Psychology, Psychology and Counselling and Psychology and Child Development. However, I just don’t know what I want to do. I have one idea but that is very difficult to achieve and none of those courses are required. I love the thought of doing a specialised psychology degree but I’m too afraid to limit myself. I have chosen just plain psychology. My options are fully open. It might seem like I’m not passionate enough but that’s not the case. I actually love psychology so much that I really enjoy various areas and after only having done a foundation year I feel that there is a lot more to explore.

Right, I need to get back to work. I’ll be working like a crazy woman for the next week or so but this is my own fault for not getting through it during the Easter break… Time to put the violin away…

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